Simple.

7/10

I need:

to get a book on driving, to study
to get my permit
to get my license
to have my license in time to drive when I'm out of school
to find a job to hold down after I'm done school
to stop driving myself absolutely crazy like this

Goodnight.

Can't escape the ghost of you.

7/7

"Your chance to turn one of your dreams into a goal and tackle that goal with your usual meticulous attention has now officially arrived -- and if you're dealing with the department of long-distance travel, higher education or spiritual quests, you'll have all the heavenly help you could ever ask for to get the show on the road. Go for it."

My horoscope, really? Keep my dreams out of this. If this is the universe's way of pointing me in the right direction, I don't approve. When will I stop dreaming of you?

Passion or coincidence
Once prompted you to say
"Pride will tear us both apart"
Well now pride's gone out the window
Crossed the rooftops, run away
Left me in the vacuum of my heart

You don't know me.

7/6

Things I've felt but I've never said
You said things that I never said
So I'll say something that I should have said long ago:

You don't know me
You don't know me at all
You don't know me
You don't know me at all

That song is glorious. It's been stuck in my head since this morning.

Also, I want to chop my hair off in the worst way. I'm close to going all out:

I love Pink. I don't think, truly, there's one thing about her that I dislike. She makes me want to not give a fuck about anyone's opinion. Just chop my hair off and do what I want. Just write some political music and send it to smoe local politicians. Get some tattoos. Pierce my nose. The whole nine yards. Plus, she's hot.

Oh! I forgot!

I hung out with my dad yesterday, and he gave me (!!!) some of his camera stuff. His tripod (which I've been searching for!), his camera case, and his Tamron telephoto lens, which is freakin' huge. It's 75-300mm! To give some perspective, a standard lens is 18-55mm. Say it with me now: BALLIN'. Granted, I don't know how much I'll use it, because around here, I don't know what kind of stuff is worth all that, but hey, maybe I'll find something.

So right now, I'm off to mess around with all that.

And I'm hanging out with Kori tomorrow, she's picking me up about an hour after I get home from school. We're going shopping. And I have some cash, so that's cool. I don't know if I'll actually buy anything, but you never know. It'll be cool to see her.

Independence day.

7/4

Today was splendid. I never dig holidays, beside Christmas, but I actually had a good day. Here's how it went, more or less:

Mom asked if I wanted to go to Fortescue, I thought it sounded fun. Brought the beach chairs and a kite we've never used before. Brought my D60, of course. Went for a walk in the sand, collected glass while my mom collected shells. Got sand in my eye, hurt terribly. Had to run back to Aubrey's house for some eye solution, to no avail. Assembled kite, ordered food from Dino's. Picked up our meal, went back to Fortescue. Sat to eat, wound up watching their parade, which wasn't on our agenda. Finished food, tried flying the kite. Mom crashed it several times. I took pictures, naturally. Sat and watched the sunset. People started piling into the parking lots, we figured someone might be trying to set off a few fireworks. Stayed a while. Fireworks were glorious, you could see them all the way from Delaware, I think. Saw Theo, but didn't say hi.

I'm too blah right now to get too into anything. I had a great day, but now, all I want to do is sleep and welcome a new one.

I think Kori and I might be trying to hang out on Tuesday, so that's cool. Maybe I'll shop a little, I have money to blow.

Oh, and I got my appointment for senior portraits: August 6th. My last day in summer school is August 7th, so that's cool. I just need to figure out what I'm doing to my hair, now. I'm so willing to chop it off, but then I get so absolutely terrified. The styles I like will probably make me look like a butchy lady or a flat out boy, two things I'd like to avoid.

Whatever. Sleep now. Think later.

Playlist time.

7/2

I made this last night for my MySpace page. I quite like it.

01) Death Cab for Cutie - Soul Meets Body
02) Coldplay - Viva la Vida
03) Kelly Clarkson - Don't Let Me Stop You
04) Red Hot Chili Peppers - Under the Bridge
05) Marcy Playground - Sex and Candy
06) MoZella - Thank You
07) Eve 6 - Open Road Song
08) The Blue Van - Silly Boy
09) Michael Jackson - Billie Jean
10) Josh Groban - You Raise Me Up

Enjoy. :)